There are a lot of things I’ve told people. And then felt weird about after.
Like I’ll say something real, something heavy, because it’s sitting in my chest and I don’t know where else to put it. And in the moment, it feels like relief. Like I’m being honest. Like maybe I’m letting someone in.
But then I walk away from it feeling guilty. Like I trauma barfed. Like I turned someone I care about into a standin therapist when they didn’t ask for that job. I think I just want to be understood without crossing that invisible line where I make someone else carry it too.
I don’t always know how to tell the truth and still be fair.
There’s this space between silence and oversharing and I don’t always land in the middle. Sometimes I get it wrong. But I’m trying.
If you’ve ever said too much and then felt too much after, I get it. I’m right there with you. Still learning how to say things in a way that doesn’t hurt me or anyone else.
